Oh, I am now, Ann.
This was very insidious and I’m kinda surprised I didn’t recognize it much earlier. But she said to me the other day “you have anger about something, you need to address that”. I turned it over in my mind for several days before this light came on.
It’s more than just choosing though. It’s also recognizing why the reaction is there in the first place. And that’s the rage of a man in combat with his demons (loss, guilt, pain, abandonment). I didn’t use to get angry about stuff. Especially not little stuff like this. It’s a lot easier to choose the correct path when you can see what triggers the feeling in the first place.