You know Brooke, it turns out she’s the INTJ. I’m an INTP. I think we’re both kinda challenging to love. I never stopped loving her. I don’t think I ever will. We got back together in late August but we still couldn’t figure out the magic necessary to keep it together.

Ironically, I wanted to be completely upfront with her so I bought her a year on Medium and pointed her to my stuff. The only thing she objected to in all of my writing was that comment about 6AM sex! The truth is, she was up for sex way more often than just at 6AM. There were extenuating circumstances that often prevented it.

Anyway, what does this man want in a relationship? Right now, it’s the freedom to pursue some dreams that make people, particularly around my age, very nervous. I’m about to sever myself from my almost 29 year career to dive into a maelstrom of change and instability. My finances are going to be shaky at best. I’m going to be traveling for at least a year. I’m grabbing life by the balls. The woman in this story isn’t at all comfortable with those dreams. She has dreams of her own. But, she did tell me she was holding mine up to the universe and praying for me to be fulfilled.

I don’t want to die having never really lived. I had a great marriage. Raised four wonderful kids. But, I never felt like I was living my best possible life. I’m taking some time to be completely selfish and reaching for something bigger. I’d love to find someone who had the courage to join me on what I expect to be the wildest ride of my life. At the same time, I suspect I’m supposed to do this alone.

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